"Paper has more patience than people."
-Anne Frank
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year 2020, Everyone!
If I had to sum up 2019 for me in one word, it would be "growth".
While I've got a long way to go, I can't deny the personal changes that I've already gone through. Around the same time last year, I had started a personal journal. The other day, I was briefly looking over the entries as the year went on. In short, they started with emotional disarray and evolved to becoming more collected and solution-oriented.
While, yes, there were many events that took place, like the loss of my dog Lupa in July, the entries during those trying times provided a lot of clarity in my thoughts and feelings. Despite the deep sorrow that I still feel, I give myself permission to grieve and support my mom during this time. I surrender to the idea that we may never heal. Oddly, saying this to her gave both of us a sense of comfort, knowing there is no pressure to ever heal; that it's ok to grieve and let go only when it's time.
My personal journal remains a platform for emotional honesty; to sort out things and focus on what to do, if there is anything to do. It has helped me in all areas of my life. Although I don't have it all together, I clearly see the path on getting there. I'm taking those first steps already and it feels good.
Also, I'm more consistent in my trading endeavor, going through the process of the learning curve. No, I'm not making the big money yet in this business but I'm definitely in a better place thanks to the support and coaching provided by OTA, particularly Gabe, Sam and Justin. Moving forward, I'm working on making my trade plan even more effective by "trimming off the fat" and reinforce just what yields profitable and CONSISTENT results.
Since this project is the focal point at this moment in time, I am continuing the effort. The striving has made me a better person. I'm more calm and positive than I used to be; actually a little more optimistic, for the first time in a very long while, if ever! That in and of itself is already success. I'm learning now to enjoy the journey, because there is the probability that I may never get to my financial "destination". Life is too short to worry about that. Doing my best and playing the game is all I can control. And you know what? That's good enough for me.
Amor Fati. Memento Mori.
Roaring 20's, here we come...again!
